Friday, February 1, 2008

Thank You

Thank you for ignoring my tears

It taught me that no person who makes you cry is worth it.


Thank you for haunting my dreams

I woke up today believing that bad dreams eventually go away


Thank you for twisting my arm (by mistake)

Ill never let any man physically abuse me ever


Thank you for screaming and shouting at me

It made me recognize that emotional abuse can hit you so damn hard


Thank you for the aggression, the cold silent weeks when you refused to talk

I began to realize the importance of good communication


Thank you for telling me that I smile too much

I learned that one smile can change a life


Thank you for putting me down, for telling me that I’m not good enough

It taught me to believe in myself


Thank you for making fun of all my friends

They have been there for me right through


Thank you for never standing up for me

It taught me to stand up for myself


Thank you for never caring about the hearts you’ve hurt

I’ve learned that people can be very selfish


Thank you for letting ‘fame’ get to you

I’ve learned never to make that mistake


Thank you for not wanting to be with me on weekends

I’ve learned to spend time with myself


Thank you for calling me a ‘control-freak’!

I’m working on being more easy going


Thank you for making love to me in all my innocence

It will be something ill cherish all my life


And lastly,

Thank you for walking out on me

I would have never ever let go of you otherwise

2 comments:

Amak said...

dear Neha,
thanks for reading my blog. and now, here i am reading urs!
that poem is just so full of bitterness, there's so much of a broken soul that i can read in those lines, yet it's full of a message of hope, of independence, of the celebrating on one's own being and the beauty of that being.
oh hope, that reminds me of elemental!!
am glad that in the dawn of all the first lines, came the realisation of the second lines. that's the way to tackle life my darling!
keep going!
love,
kama

neha smiles :) said...

kama,
in fact when i wrote the poem, there was not a trace of bitterness at all..i felt strangely at peace, felt hopeful and felt loved. Im moving on, and i really am becoming that whole,complete individual i had always hoped to be!
love
neha